My first blog... ever

I have to admit... i have never once in my 16 almost 17 years writen a blog... and to be horrably honest. I'm not sure why i have begun to write one, but then again... maybe its just away to get my story into the world, even though i kinda doupt people will ever read this. I mean, whats the point its simply me ...talking about myself and my little world.

Where to begin... thats an entirly different question.
I guess we could start with what made me actualy resort to writing this.
For this practice, I will go as K.
I'm 16 years old, as i stated earlier, my father past away in 2002 when i was 8 years old.. but thats not exsactly the story i wanted to get into.
Tonights story... it starts with my sister. 4 years older than me who has a daughter her own house going to college always the prty girl who all the guys would gawk at as she past in the hallways of our small town school.
But being her mothers little angle... she got pregnant at 16 years old... funny eh.
At 12 years of age... im sure you could imain my pure amazment.
Of course, after my mom working to stablize us after the death of my dad... you could only imagin what adding a new baby does to that.
But for right now, i want to talk about the dad...
who we shall call Lee.
Lee... he's a funny character..
and Lee is the reason for me writing my blog.
My neice who is now four years old, and at no point in time ever thing that i would take back her being born. i love the little goof no matter what, and nothing shitty in my life is her fault.
My neice she loves her mommy and her daddy, as any kid does. And my neice has a brand new little babysister or babybrother on the way!
But what my sister and neice do not see (not that i want the kid to see)
Lee is a fucking asshole!
Lee has decided that his child and his wife (my sister) are just simple two people he can throw around like rag dolls! And in the process, has desided that me and my mother have the responsibility to pick up my sister and her daughter.
Lee, recently desided he didnt want to live with his family, instead he wanted to go home to his parents.
Leaving my sister at the house by herself with their daughter... and my sis HATES being alone.
And the entire time while sis is pregnant... emotions flying every which way! Lee... oh he doesnt care... because you know what he gets to do now that he doesnt have the wife nagging on him... every moment he isnt at work. Lee gets to go SNOWBOARDING.
now dont get me wrong, i love snowboarding... i'm not a big fan of people nagging on me but honestly... you got a wife and kid and another kid on the way.
:O and did i forget to menchion.
While Lee snowboards... he maraculusly forgets to buy groceries for his family that he has left.
Now my sister is going to school and a stay at home mom because for her to go get a job... there would be no proffit because she would have to pay for child care. There for Lee brings in all the money... and as Lee likes to have a good firm grip on my sister, has convinced her that they have no extra money. there for she can not have money for gas or spending money.
THEREFOR she comes to my mom to get money
my mom, shes a cook who makes decent money which comes at the cost of working 7 days a week. As she has to support her daughter who has moved out, me who is unable to get a job because i must look after my grandma who recently had a heart attack and fumbles to make her way around the house, is unable to make her own meals, and needs help to get in bed at night.
-deep breath-
So sis gives Lee one week to come home. And on the final night, 4 hours before midnight, Lee walks into there house.
Get this, they cant be back together but he'll live in the basement.
ok i can handle that... as maybe he'll start buying groceries again
But of course... they dont have an extra bed so first night back he gets to sleep with my sis upstairs.
(he'll never make it downstairs)
So this is where my sister stands, the father of her two kids is sleeping in her bed and my guess they will be fucking.
BUT they are not back together yet.
(by the way, Lee has cheated on her before and i have no doubt in my mind that he would do it again)
So back to my point.
My mom, shes 47 had three kids, one who died in hospital aprox 3 weeks old. Her husband comits suicide leaving all the money to his mother. Leaving all the bills and payments to my mother. my mom takes the other side of the family to court for child support. 75 grand later. mom walks out of court other side of the family wins. Threwout my childhood childrens aid called on us multipul times. Has to sell the house that her and her husband built and raised there kids on. Has to raise two kids on very low income.
Now lets get one point across nice and clear, my mom
is Amazing! All of mine and my sisters friends love her.
My mom, my sister and i are very tight knit.
We've stuck together threwout it all
she's never abused us never dont ANYTHING wrong
so dont even think about judging her
because my mom would do anything for her two kids.
and she would do anything for our friends and anyone that is close to her.
She's had a shitty go, and she still remains a strong, loving, tender and caring, independant, trustworthy... all around amazing mom and person.
she works so hard too suport her family.
suport her kids in everyway she can
and she does an amazing job at it.
i just wish some days she'd give somthing to herself for a change.
Like i said... mom works 7 days a week somtimes
she can pull 60 - 70 hour work weeks.
Often times i only get to see her late at night when she gets home.
Now while my sis goes to school mom agreed to watch the kiddo for the morning on the week day that she works nights.
well this week... it starts off with the kiddo comes the night prior for a sleep over...
my sis desides to pull the.. oh i have homework to do can i pick u up at 3 30 k?
i said yes.. of course... its for her school what else am i supose to say?
Later on while im cruising on facebook..
i see on my sisters profile
"Cant wait for tonight <3"
... cant wait for tonight... well
we know thats not doing homewrk
so i comment politly
"oh why whats tonight"
... its been 24 hours and my sisters facebook has had quite abit of activity...
but still i remain without a reply.
Then we come back to Lee
Lee who "worked today, so nooo he cant look after his OWN DAUGHTER"
... tells my moms manager and boss who he texts all the time
that dear old buddy Lee
spent the ENTIRE DAY
SNOWBOARDING
while my mother babysat...
my mom who works 7 days a week.. doesnt ask for money or even a thank you to babysit. who doesnt get alot of sleep when the kiddo spends the night, who worked the next night
who could be sleeping in and resting from her 7 days of working...
babysat
.... I love my neice and i love my sister...
but i dont agree with lying
and my sister not only flat out lied to me
but also
used my mother... her mother
.... who works relentlessly to do everything she can for her
.....
anyways
thats my rant for tonight :P
Thanks to any who read.
-K